The Rape Joke by Lora Mathis by imreallyNOTokay, journal
The Rape Joke by Lora Mathis
"The rape joke is that you were eight.
The rape joke is that at the time,
you didn’t know people had sex to express love.
The rape joke is that the only other person
who’d seen you naked was your mom.
The rape joke is that he called you ‘beautiful’ first.
The rape joke is that he held your hands together
and told you to ‘try harder’ when you struggled.
The rape joke is that you believed him
when he told you were overreacting.
The rape joke is that your grandma
called him a nice boy and asked him to stay for dinner.
The rape joke is that he winked at you
when you apologized to your parents for not coming
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When you're stuck on my mind
and I'm stuck on your tongue,
What could go wrong?
the day wouldn't ruin this,
For us,
This is ours
My hand in yours,
your whispers in my ear
"I love you my dear"
How could I ever get enough
I'll never have enough of you
Late at night, when you're awake
Dreaming of catastrophes
and all the other entities
just stop...
and think of all the things
that we could do
and all the things that we'll become
This is ours
My hand in yours,
your whispers in my ear
"I love you my dear"
How could I ever get enough
I'll never have enough of you
When all I need is your love
and you're just after my heart
who would get in our w
Shit.
I unintentionally use it almost every day.
In a sudden hiccup, I slip up and it slips out.
Even when I can’t think of anything else to say.
You can bet beyond a shadow of a doubt.
That exact word will seep and creep out.
It makes its way into any given conversation.
It’s probably the most used default abbreviation.
It requires no effort and rolls out with no hesitation.
It’s so universal it can be suited to every situation.
In an upsurge it will emerge with no indication.
How can one word have so many definitions.
And still have the same effect despite its repetition.
How can this same word blur all the lines of di
Semi-Detached.
She was very sensitive.
As if the volume was turned up in her head.
She started using her mother’s sedatives,
As a solution for her sleepless nights in bed.
She couldn’t connect with any of her relatives,
They never showed an interest in anything she said.
Her attempts at socialising were tentative,
So she conjured up imaginary friends instead.
Her dogged detachment was her only imperative.
She could not risk the chance of being misled.
There was no one to peel back the layer of negatives.
Too many years of tears have been bred and shed.
The smile she occasionally displayed was purely decorative.
She knows
Love consists out of pain
Love consists out of desire
Love is what I admire
Love always fights against my brain
Love is despising
Love is passion
Love is not a piece of fashion
Love is always surprising
None of these things are untrue
Love is enough to make one weep
That is love as it seems
Yet when I think of you
I simply can’t fall asleep
Since life is finally better, than in my own dreams
What would you do?
...
If I disappeared without a word?
If I screamed for you before i was gone?
If I said nothing to you as the last words?
If I cry for you?
If I smile before I leave?
If I sing you one last song?
If I laugh out loud to make you feel it's nothing?
If I cut my throat?
If I shot my head?
If I jump in the river?
If I run into a car?
If I stick a knife in my chest?
...
If I am gone?